Emotional crap

My friend Rachel just had a birthday!!

Today was a really busy day. I had the day off and had plans to get my nails done and go to the tanning salon but then I decided I didn’t need to blow any money on my nails this week. Taylor and I took a shower and got dolled up to go out to lunch with Brandi. At 1pm we met Brandi at the bank and we headed over to the Olive Garden for lunch and then went home afterwards. It was perfect timing when I got home cause Alan walked in the door 5 minutes later and then I headed over to the tanning salon. I went in for 8 minutes this time and I actually burnt a little bit. My ass and back are red. :confused:lol At 4pm Alan, Taylor, and myself drove to Alan’s fathers house for dinner. A couple hours later I had to meet Brandi at 7 so we could drive all the way over to the other side of the world to the opera. We were invited to go from a couple co-workers that we work with and they were just awesome!! It is crazy to work with such talented people. ….so that was my day. Now I am at home relaxing and I need to get my ass into bed.

An update about my personal life..I never dicuss my marriage because it is way too personal to discuss to complete strangers..you know it isn’t anyones business really..but Alan and I are really trying to work on things and it is like a teeter totter..up and down…We have some major issues that we haven’t ever told each other through the years and even though it is painful to dicuss I feel a lot better now releasing what I feel and hearing what he has to say. Trust me..it would be so damn easy to just let everything go but we both agree we have worked hard building our lives together and we shouldn’t throw it away. No relationship will ever be perfect and they may not last but I need to try a little harder at making things work too. I think that I let myself build up so many walls that Alan just can’t reach me. He loves me more than anything in this world and I have some issues I need to work on. That is all for now.