Nothing special, just blah, blah, blah
Alan and Taylor just left for work and preschool. It’s really early, like 5:58am. I decided to jump online and checkout my buzznet photo album since it’s been a long time since I actually logged in. I found some Spring Break pictures and seeing them makes me sad. Sad to know i am far away from being that young age and having fun. I want those years back 
The past 10 years have gone by so fast I can only remember half of them. Am I to old to have fun with the kids now? I don’t feel like it, I am sure that I am old to them now though. I don’t feel like i’m at that age yet where I should be living that thirty something life. If you know what I mean. I’m still young, yeah I have a family, but I want to go out to the lake and have a few drinks and get buzzed with friends and make a fool of myself sometimes. I want t go to Tempe or somewhere with some girlfriends and find a dance club and feel like I am having an awesome time again. I havent been to a dance club since 2001. Thats sad. ( nevermind, forgot I went out last February)
Now that my family is going to get huge in a couple weeks I wonder if I’ll ever have fun again. I am sure, but how many more years? I want to go to Vegas. It’s like getting married and going out and having fun for the last time but I can;t right now. I am stuck in bed I really want a pedicure, and get my nails done, and take a trip to see my friends at work, but I can’t. I havent driven my beautiful car in months. I want to drive down and have lunch with Brandi. I’m just bored and need to be around people. Bed rest for 2 months I guess is starting to bum me out. I guess I’ll stop whining.
Sunday i went down for my NST and ultrasound at the hospital and the babies were looking great. I have to see my doctor tomorrow for my regular visit and Thursday I have another NST & Ultrasound. I’m gettig anxious and really scared now that I am 34 weeks Thursday. D-Day is coming. In no more than 2 weeks I’ll be getting my gut cut open The thing I am scared about the most is the time i go in and they start giving me the spinal, and then going in and cutting, and hoping I don’t have any problems. I am scared about the recovery, the pain, the ticket to getting food for the first time. They make you get up and walk 4 hours after surgery and you have to pass gas so it doesnt build up and hurt like hell in your body. The nurse told me the gas can settle up in your shoulders and hurt pretty bad if you don’t. I’m scared about the babies, but I don’t want to write about that..I want to see their faces so bad. I want to see how big they are and try and figure out how they fit in my belly. I want to see how Taylor reacts to them. I want to know I can come home with them and survive our first night at home, all 5 of us. Damn, I have a family of 5 now. It’s still weird to me.
Okay, It’s time for me to get some more sleep. I felt like mumbling off this morning and get some crap off my shoulders. Oh, I hate being home alone so early. It freaks me out
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Nothing special, just blah, blah, blah
Alan and Taylor just left for work and preschool. It’s really early, like 5:58am. I decided to jump online and checkout my buzznet photo album since it’s been a long time when I actually logged in. I found some Spring Break pictures and seeing them makes me sad. Sad to know i am far away from being that young age and having fun. I want those years back The past 10 years have gone by so fast I can only remember half of them. Am I to old to have fun with the kids now? I don’t feel like it, I am sure that I am old to them now though. I don’t feel like i’m at that age yet where I should be living that thirty something life. If you know what I mean. I’m still young, yeah I have a family, but I want to go out to the lake and have a few drinks and get buzzed with friends and make a fool of myself sometimes. I want t go to Tempe or somewhere with some girlfriends and find a dance club and feel like I am having an awesome time again. I havent been to a dance club since 2001. Thats sad.
Now that my family is going to get huge in a couple weeks I wonder if I’ll ever have fun again. I am sure, but how many more years? I want to go to Vegas. It’s like getting married and going out and having fun for the last time but I can;t right now. I am stuck in bed I really want a pedicure, and get my nails done, and take a trip to see my friends at work, but I can’t. I havent driven my beautiful car in months. I want to drive down and have lunch with Brandi. I’m just bored and need to be around people. Bed rest for 2 months I guess is starting to bum me out. I guess I’ll stop whining.
Sunday i went down for my NST and ultrasound at the hospital and the babies were looking great. I have to see my doctor tomorrow for my regular visit and Thursday I have another NST & Ultrasound. I’m gettig anxious and really scared now that I am 34 weeks Thursday. D-Day is coming. In no more than 2 weeks I’ll be getting my gut cut open The thing I am scared about the most is the time i go in and they start giving me the spinal, and then going in and cutting, and hoping I don’t have any problems. I am scared about the recovery, the pain, the ticket to getting food for the first time. They make you get up and walk 4 hours after surgery and you have to pass gas so it doesnt build up and hurt like hell in your body. The nurse told me the gas can settle up in your shoulders and hurt pretty bad if you don’t. I’m scared about the babies, but I don’t want to write about that..I want to see their faces so bad. I want to see how big they are and try and figure out how they fit in my belly. I want to see how Taylor reacts to them. I want to know I can come home with them and survive our first night at home, all 5 of us. Damn, I have a family of 5 now. It’s still weird to me.
Okay, It’s time for me to get some more sleep. I felt like mumbling off this morning and get some crap off my shoulders. Oh, I hate being home alone so early. It freaks me out
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Awwww, honey!! I’m sorry you’re so yucky feeling today. *hugs*
This is a beautiful template!! Lilies are my favorite.
Thank you Chase
I was lazy and downloaded this template from a site. The link is at the bottom 
Awe my poor Chelle. Take a breath honey. I know it seems like a big leap but all will be ok. Its going to take a little adjustment time but you will do fine. Your a fantastic mommy to Taylor and you will be to the twins as well. By the time I get down there in July you will be an expert! Just dontlet your mind wander to far! I know I was freaking when expecting my second single baby… how will I be able to do it all? A todler, a baby and the housework?? Impossible! …its not, but I felt like it. But soon enough Jeff was here and everything fell into place and I learned to just go with it. And now I have a family of 6 and I still manage the house the kids a job AND most importantly, I go out with freinds and have FUN . Every Saturday I go out with friends and do something, lunch, nails/pedi, movie, something. And occationally we go out and have fun like the “good ole days” and go out for a few drinks and dancing… Did I tell you we are going to see CATS on Apr 8? I can wait! Dinner and a show in the same night???? OMG!!
Anyway Chelle you know you have many friends out there, and many of us are parents, and would be glad to spend some time talking to you to help you releve your fears. You CAN do this. and you WILL have fun once you get into a routine. Just relax, dont over think it, it will happen, let it, enjoy it. They grow up FAR to fast. Kiss them, love them, hug them, worry about fun when its less chaotic, it will happen, you have to come visit me eventually!! LOL
Love you girl, Call if you need to chat, I am here for you.
Allson/Sis
*shocked and appaled on my spelling. I have now learned my lesson to wake up before posting on Chelles site!
Aw, Chelle, sorry you are having such a bad day but you are entitled since you are going through so much. I’m sure you will do absolutely fine when the babies come and you’ll forget you were even worried.
Jeez, I’m the wrong side of thirty and I’ve never even done all those “young” things you describe!
You must be going stir crazy! Hang in there! Try to enjoy your last couple of weeks of peace and quiet. You’ll be amazed at how normal your big family will feel. I can’t imagine not having a family of six, life would be so dull.:mrgreen:
Love your new template!
I can kind of see where your coming from..I’m young yet..I want to go to Vegas..and that was the plan this year. I wanted to go to the clubs..now that I’m legal. Be able to drink a few here and there..but now I have alittle set back. I know i’ll be able to go out but I don’t want to leave my daugther with someone else..it’s not their resonisbility.
Anyways, 2 months on bed rest..yeah you can go insane now. I’ve only been on for techinically 2 days (since I’m home) and I’m bored as hell.
While I was in the hospital they did NST’s on me..but I don’t think their going to do them again. I go for an ultrasound on Wednesday because my fluid is up at 38 when it was 16. Then I go back the following week for my regular check up..they’ll probably want to see me weekly since my chances of having her early are probably high.
I’m sure everything will go fine!! It’ll be great once you’ll be able to see them!!