Go visit PantherGirl..shes awesome and I have her as my tenant this week 
I have a lot of emails to send out to thank everyone for the awesome comments!! I have been trying to keep it all together over here because my babies aren’t with me and I seem to be having issues healing. I am feeling pretty anxious about that. I am hoping I haven’t developed toxemia. It can happen within 2 weeks after giving birth my doctor said. I am having backaches to were I can’t stand much and I cant walk and talk …it hurt to breath cause its like my back muscles cant stretch. I’ll be going in to see my doctor in the morning to see whats wrong. I am scared…and my hormones I am sure aren’t helping me one bit.
The babies might come home Monday. This weekend we will be trained to do CPR and use the moniter they will hook up to the babies. It will track their vital signs..Kira has been having some low heart rates at night but they said they are full term babies and it should go away soon. Theres so much to write about but I dont feel like getting into everything. I am tired.
So here’s the story. Thursday I went in for my NST and I was contracting every 2-3 minutes but I never felt them. They checked my cervix and I was dialated 3 cm. They almost gave me tributaline but I said no..whats the point? There is no garauntee it would help. I went home and the nurse said if I felt better to come in and have my cervix checked when I felt I needed because she wouldnt be surprised if I ended up back there soon. I really didn’t want to risk having to go through full blown labor with a breech baby coming out. So I go home….
Friday morning at 6am Alan left to take Taylor to preschool and go to work. I called him 3 minutes after he left and I am glad I did. I said, please come home..I just need to go to the hospital..I feel really uneasy being home 10 hours and not feeling contractions and knowing I am dialating. I’d be alone and screwed if something happened. So he turned around and I got in the car and we drove the 35 minutes to the hospital.
I walk into the triage and tell the lady I need to have my cervix checked..I was 36 weeks pregnant with twins and everything. I get into my room and could you believe I dialted to 5 cm?! I told them I would rather be safe than sorry and either be admitted or see if they can deliver me as son as possible. 10 minutes later they walked in the room and said,” we talked with the doctor on call and he will meet you in the delivery room to meet your babies at 10:30, you better get your stuff and get your IV in, get prepped cause we don’t have a lot of time!” That was at 9am. I was like…OH MY GOD..Are you kidding? It was a shock and I was scared but felt relief. It was Birth Day!!
I won’t go into the birth except to say this…The last 15 minutes or so I was alone in the operating room, they had Alan follow the babies, I was scared..starting to have the shakes, and my mind was going crazy. I know this sounds funny but I heard the radio they turned on as they were finishing closing my incision and Depeche Mode was on the radio..I was like Awesome!! Turn it UP. It gaved me a couple minutes to forget everything. I thought itwas cool. The recovery room was 2 hours of loneliness…i couldnt stop shaking and they tried demoral..and then tried something else. Finally they calmed and went away.
One of the nurses I had during surgery was the jerk who drew blood and gave me that nasty bruise a couple weeks ago. Thankfully she didn’t do my IV..lol
I was only able to see a glimpse of the babies. I didn’t get to see them for a whole day after and because they were under the oxygen hoods I coulnd’t hold them. It was pretty hard. Finally the second day I got to touch them and hold them . They have been getting better but they had their ups and downs. They both had jaundice as expected and are better.
I have more pictures to show but they are on my sister-in-laws camera and when she gets home she will burn them to disc and send them. Alan and I didn’t have my camera 
I need to get my rest. Soon I will email you all thank yous!! I don’t think I will be on here to update as often until I feel better. Plus the percocet and Motrin keep me pretty drowsy. I’ll update as soon as I can 
Alan brought me the comments to read at the hospital