Raina is such a talker! She is always smiling for us

Taylor is testing everyone around her. There’s a lot of time outs and taking things away. I think there are so many things going on in her life and the twins that the kids are having a hard time adjusting. Alan is engaged now and Justin is with me…It would be hard for me as a 6 year old to deal with that too. When I was on bed rest and during my maternity leave Alan had the kids quite a bit so I could heal. I feel really guilty because of that. I’m going to find a counselor for her so she has someone to talk to. I need someone to talk to as well even though Justin is a great listener but I need someone who can see things from the outside.

Today I forgave and reached out to someone that hurt me really bad almost 2 years ago. I hope I don’t get hurt again.

Good Morning from Phoenix.

The kids had a great Halloween this year. Taylor filled up both of her buckets with goodies. Taylor dressed up as Tinkerbell, Kira was a kitty, and Aidan was a lion. Alan took them out since I had to work and there wasn’t any time off available at work. The kids are getting so big so fast, time is just flying by.

Work is going good. I got a 4% raise a couple months ago and my 1st anniversary is coming up in January. On January 18th I will receive 4 weeks vacation and I’ll be planning a trip to Disneyland with the kids sometime in March. I haven’t been there since I was 10 years old. I’m taking this coming Saturday off with Justin. I can’t wait We’re doing really well. We’ve been spending a lot of time together and the other weekend we both took Saturday and Sunday off and we had a picnic with the kids and when we weren’t with the kids.. well, you know He is fantastic!

I have the day off today. I have a goal today..get off my rump and workout. I need to get some pictures of the apartment so you all can see my dwelling , that will be fun to share. I need to find my battery charge first. I have no idea where I put it when I unpacked my bags when I got home from Florida.

Alan took the kids to get their hair trimmed last week. The lady was told to take an inch off of Tay’s hair…well the stupid asshole chopped off a whole lot more. Taylors hair was to her butt when she went in and now its at her shoulders. I was at work so I couldnt strangle the bitch who chopped my baby girls curls! Yes, Im mad. I’ll get over it but still.

Work…nothing much to say really. It pays the bills. Normal drama that comes along with it.

I went swimming the other day I freaked out though when a bee landed on taylor..I have a fear of bees. The babies enjoyed the water. Aidan hates taking a bath but he ended up liking the pool.

Im totally exhausted. I have to be at the gym ina few hours…hopefully I dont pass out. Oh..tonight at work one of the ladies who cleans the building fainted between my desk and the girl who sits next to me…I was on my lunch so I missed it and the firemen who came in to help her..Damn..I missed the firemen!!!!! The lady was ok though…They had to find someone to translate cause no one on my team spoke spanish when she woke up….Ok…im out! Oh..Im too tired to edit. whatever.

I can’t believe Aidan and Kira are 1 year old!! We’re going to have some cake today and open some presents. We didn’t plan anything big…everyone lives out of town so just a couple friends will be here. I plan on making a little video of their first year….I took today and tomorrow off so when everyone is sleeping I will sneak in here and throw something together.